If I’m keeping it real (and for those who know me, that’s all I know how to do), I’ve spent the last couple of months doing what most of us instinctively do when life becomes uncertain: I’ve kept myself BUSY! I’ve filled my days working two jobs. I’ve spent long evenings with friends and family, soaking in precious time. I’ve stayed in motion-running errands, crossing things off lists, checking emails and working with clients. It looked like I was managing change well. And, in some ways, I was. But deep down? I was trying to outrun stillness.
I’m in a session of waiting-specifically , waiting for my visa to be approved so I can move to the UK and step into the next chapter I feel so deeply called to. I’ve said yes to the unknown, and now I’m walking through the long hallway between “here” and “there”.
In the space, I realized something important: No matter how many jobs I take on, how many to-do lists I tackle, or how many hours I spend with people I love…I still have to sit with myself. And eventually, the distractions quiet down. The noise fades. And I’m left with the ache of uncertainty-and the sacred invitation that always hides inside it.
When I finally stopped running from the stillness, I began to feel. Not just the excitement of the move, but the grief of leaving. Not just the anticipation, but the anxiety. Not just the purpose-but the powerlessness of waiting for something you can’t control.
But here’s the truth I’ve come to trust: What we avoid in stillness is often what we need to heal in stillness.
Sitting with yourself in the unknown isn’t comfortable-but it can be transformational. It’s in those quiet, unscheduled moments that clarity begins to whisper. That presence returns. That peace begins to rise-not because your circumstances have changed but because you have!
If you’re avoiding the stillness too, I get it. Really, I do. Maybe you’re not waiting for a visa like I am. Maybe you’re waiting for clarity in your career. Or wondering if your relationship is evolving or unraveling. Or facing the quiet of a room that used to be filled by someone you miss. You’re doing your best. And I honor that. But if distraction isn’t working anymore, I want to lovingly offer this:
Pause.
Breathe.
Be with what’s here-even if it’s uncomfortable.
You don’t have to fix it or figure it all out. You just have to be willing to stay with it long enough to let it speak to you.
This season of unknown has softened me. It’s reminded me that transformation often looks like stillness before it looks like progress. It’s shown me that God, the universe, Spirit, the Divine-does some of the most important work in the silence. And its taught me this: You are not along in the unknown. You are not broken because you’re waiting. You are being prepared in ways you can’t yet see.
So wherever you are-running, resting or somewhere in between, I hope you know that the path is unfolding. You’re not behind. You’re becoming.
With you in the pause,
Stacey
