There’s a strange stretch of time where life feels like it’s holding its breath-not quite a beginning, not quite an end. That’s where I have been lately.
I’m still waiting on my visa.
Still in limbo.
Still learning to live in the uncertainty.
And the biggest lessons that keeps showing up, in quiet ways and louder ones, is TRUST.
There’s a kind of surrender required when you check you email every day and find nothing new. It’s tempting to let fear creep in, to write stories in your head about what might be going wrong, or what delay means. But I am learning that not hearing anything doesn’t always mean something is broken. Sometimes, it means, “not yet”. And that’s where trust has to step in.
Trust…when people say “It will work out”. People mean well. They want to offer hope. But the truth is, they don’t know. And neither do I.
What I am learning is that trust doesn’t mean forcing myself to believe a perfect outcome is guaranteed. It means believing that no matter how this plays out, I will find my way through. It means choosing to believe in myself, in life’s deep unfolding, and in a deeper kind of support I can’t always explain.
Trust…in myself. This part has surprised me the most. Waiting isn’t passive. It stirs things up! Doubt. Anxiety. Loneliness. But it also reveals how far I’ve come-the tools I’ve gathered, the strength I didn’t know I had. Trusting life is one thing. Trust myself to meet whatever comes? That might be the real lesson here.
Trust…that this is not wasted time. There’s an ache in the waiting. I won’t sugarcoat that. But I am learning that not every season has to be productive in the traditional sense. Growth doesn’t always come with checklists and milestones. Sometimes, it’s quiet and internal-a deepening, a softening, a reshaping. Maybe trust is what happens when you stop trying to fast forward your life. When you sit through the uncertainty, breathe through it, and let it shape you.
Im still in it. Still waiting. But Im not stuck. I’m learning to trust-not just in what’s coming, but in who I am becoming while I wait.
With you while we wait. And trust.
Stacey
